Square head

Imagine a square box no matter how you turn it, it turn out that the things inside it will stuck in the corner until it is being move again. compare to a sphere box no matter how you turn it, it will not have any corner that it will get stuck. With only a slight movement things started to move again. Teaching management, but do not how to use it in itself. Everthing is getting messier which mean getting worse. when we know from the beginning that there is a deadline and ther person that are in charge if approving everything is not there, things should be done by assingning others to do the approval rather then living everything in a mess. People keep pushing around ask to ask from one place to another. This only sets an example of how to push responsibilities from one person to another and also this shows that people don't care what is happening at other small boxes but only within that only box. This is why there will be never a perfect box since the small box cant glue to each other to be a larger one.

something to share

Early this year here in Sarawak comes producer which indirectly did music, create music and also sing himself. Recently CD's had been produce and apart from introduce and give chances to some talented people it is also for charity use and also contain some spiritual song instead of song about life and love which is normally composes by artist. The title of the album is The Undiscoverd Talent. It compromise oldies style, classic, sentimental and also rock songs and it consist of malay, english and also chinese songs. Apart of that now video is being made and yet it is unpublished yet. For whether it is nice or not i can't comment on it since different people has different taste. All i can say for this is local quality album it can be classified as an ok can't say too good can't say it is bad. Well this is the first album anyway, feedback has been taken and public requirement have been taken into consideration. From this a finding that people now a days mostly people like songs not because of the content of the lyrics but by looking on the vocal, melody and also the music. There might be some which will not agree with this statement, but it can be said that most people does not really appreciate the content of the lyrics.

Looking back

Dashing back to the year 2005, reconnect with those people which i have been living with them, have fun with them, and also suffer together in a 3 month programmes is really a pleasure. its a ling time ever since then, a lot of them had change bit the memory we had together will never ever change. Looking back to that time, thinking of it its really a thing that we can called as a life time exprerience which we will never exprerience it if we miss the chance. Don't know why but a lot of people is trying to skip this change where this is a change of exprerience and self building. Have a great fun during that time even it is sometime tiring and sometime torturing.

Peace of Mind

Mind is like center of everything. Everything come from there, ideas, metabolism, all the development around us come only form our mind and our precious brain. Without this, everything will not be working even our own body. A peace of mind is all we need each day. Without this it seems to be stop working can't go anywhere further. Sometimes when quite and peace is needed, it never can be obtain. Is like reaching up for the star high above to do so. To be alone is quite and peaceful, but its is bored, to be with people here never will feel a peace of mind. Regenerate all the time. Even in a time of rest, sleeping time, there is no peace of mind. If now only there is a companion that can just make me laugh, and forget about everything else that keep bothering me for even a second is a great pleasure. If the people around me just keep quiet for one minute or so, it will make me a great deal. Can people just understand you just can't put everything to a person as it turn out to be like putting a tonne of rock in a small place like our brain. Sharing or talking about it will let us being more light, without it all the separated small pieces of rock never get out of our brain hence our mind is always burden, always working never get a time to relax. Just hope one day people will start to solve things themselves instead keep bothering others and keep adding burden to others.

Trust and Doings

Yeah at last back from a stressful trip. Some people just can't be trusted at all. Every word spoken is only as if a wind pass by the place it blown. Only available for that time. After this hopefully everything will be in its place and words can be keep. Apart from that thinking of doing another business which will be more stable is really a headache. Doing food stalls need menu, menu is there but a permanent cook is not available. Anyway getting a part time job is the best ever since can do it anyway and anytime i wanted to just have to be in time to submit. Have to prepare stuff to some how make myself deaf everyday no relaxation at all for my tiny little ears. Sometime have to pretend to listen even though hated it, even when watching a movie there is no peace as can't concentrate in the movie at all, there is always voices talking making people feeling wanted to be deaf for a moment. Nevermind just have to stand the double impact for another 2 weeks before it is reduce to 1. Things keep repeating itself, things keep being remind all the time even i wanted to forget about it, it is hard. Some people just can accept idea and keep going without changing anything, every time complaining. TRY NEW THINGS IT MAY CHANGE THINGS!! Why not try it. Being deaf is not a great solution, preparing nuclear or radioactive devices everyday will not make any good if people don't tend to change and just keep on complaining. SOON I WILL BE DEAF!!

Fall in a water canyon

Ouch its quite a high fall, luckyly din't fall on ground fall on water, at least i still can be safe eventhough i dunno how to swim. If fall on groud i sure look like humpy dumpy now. It's finally the end of the semester and every bit of it has finshes few hour ago. Well its now time to relax a while and be preapre for the coming advventure or better call it another war. It's time to prepare nuclear boom or else radioactive devices to kill the peolple or either to make peolple suffer slowly before they eventurally die. Well its lots preparation to make compare to the final test this few days as all has no thoery but its all logical thinking and how to make thing better without anything to refer at. Well there is a few days more before this hopefully can get full relaxatio and be prepare to drop into water again from a high height. It will be quite pain but at least can survive it.

Water pipe

My mind now is like water pipe, water keep flowing cant be absorb by the pipe. Seeing things as if first time seeing it, forget it in a short time. Is like everything that is studied keep flow away, unreachable by my brain. Brain is like a piece of blank paper now without anything written on it. Even wanna fill it will words and numbers, it do not accept. Missing a soul hence no spirit to study. No matter how much read, there is still no absorption. Even wanna read without understand is hard now do not have the heart to do so. Hopefully things will turn up rite after this. This keep going on, then ac really got its meaning.

Escape from Laboratory

After being capture for more than one month almost coming to two in a deserted island, being torture by the scientist in laboratory, at last an escape had been done. It a long time ever since the last time i see the world outside. First escape is really a joy, got two teams come to the rescue. Chosen the one that is more attractive and interesting, while ditching the other. Now i know how fun it is to ditch people once in a while rather then being ditch all the while. The escape really did repair the damage after being torture. Not only repair but also have restore me back to the energetic and normal operating me. Then here come the second escape, can't all it an escape since escape once already. Find out that not only girls are scare of horror movie but vive versa. Its been a great time ever since escaping the weird scientist torturing island. Thanks to those rescuer, who make it a fun one.

In need of an angel

I don't know why bad feeling keep coming to me. Is it because of the worriness, the scared feeling in me? Most probably it is. No matter how much i tried to distract myself and try to do things, to take away that feeling, it won't go. Now that this had happen i don't know whether i can survive for the final. There is a feeling of losses of confident in this life. Even when i am doing my task, it keep coming by and stopping me to do so. Each day it become worse, and i don't know what to become of me. It is been even harder for me now to act happy in front of people. Have been impossible. Last week is a week of torture but at least i won't have this feeling concurring me. If there is a shoulder or a place where i can lend on now, or a place that can let me let go of this feeling, or a place where i can be alone and let myself yield, shout let out all the tears, its really a joy. Even spending half an hour under the shower, letting the cold water pour on me it still can't calm me down. I really needed an angel on my side now, whispering words of comfort to gain back my confident in life, to get back to previous self that are affordable to hear and have a calm heart at hand. Which i know is impossible, since i never had one before to really lend it's hand on me.

Sudden feel

After a week of torture,

There is a feeling of relief,

A feeling that can let me to let go of averything,

In the reliefness,

Hence there is an sudden feels,

Sudden feels that make one sad,

Worriness in within,

That cannot be avoid,

Tears flow without noticing,

Even with great entertainment,

It is hard to stop it,

Don't know the reason why,

It's time to find a place,

A place of nature,

That can calm me down,

A place where i can get away,

From all this sudden feeling,

The sudden feeling of sadness,

That has unknown reason.

Everthing is here!

No matter what calender we are using, almanac, lunar, everything doesn't matter another 2 month its the end of he year while lunar another 4 month will be sufficient. Its time for celebration and festival again. Since won't be able to join new year celebration no matter which one it is, it is better to take the time and have my own new year. Its almost the end of the semester, once again everything seems to be come in at once. There is a lot of things to be done and to be think of is like a pile of mountain that we need to climb out to the top. The submit is like as tall as Mt Everest now, no its taller then Mt Everest my own tallest mountain a new record. Even the holiday is still about a month away there is a lot of things that need to be thought of for the holiday. A whole new war is awaiting ahead. A war that need to be confront with much thought and carefull approach. Even though life will be though once more, ever since i have beeing born to face this type of life there nothing that can be done but to face it no matter how tired, how unreasonable some of the things are, how much i like to let go and have my own happy holiday. Its a mixture of unknown feeling of being happy to let go of study time a while, feeling desperate thinking of what is awaiting in front, feeling sad to think of what are thing that need to be done.

JUST DO YOUR PART?

Is just doing you part enough when working in a team? Its true that taks has been distributed that each person has their own task to do. This doesn't mean that you can ignore other part or other job. When you finish one should join into other task to help them finish early. Real life, do sales, get salary done, stock is not of my concern, becoming a cashier not my job also, i done mine you should do yours no matter how much the customer is, its your part not mine, i can relax customer is at the counter paying money, not selecting item now. You are not around you can pass you part to others why worry? Worry that people says you din finish your part? This is what team is for work together to accomplish something not you do this, and you do this and you do that then OK i done mine, bye.. and doing a thing do we need that much of people doing the same thing, cook a meal for 10 need 10 people to cook a dish what will the dish become, or worse still never even can accomplish it. Why need too may people to do one thing it makes situation worse. After saying this "too much ingredient spoil the soup" this asnwer is out "i just do my part". What type of co-operative are we talking about here, doing a thing together by helping each other out or i have done mine the others is non of my buisness. If you can't finish it by then you are to be blame cause that your part! Call this co-operate.. NO!!

Recent life

Every night is like day to me now. It seems there is no different between night and day. What i have been doing in the day is what i will do during the night. Too much back behind, too much thing to do seems time is running to fast. 24 hours a day is like 12 hours a day and it is never enough. Too much thing to think of educational, non-educational, everything is there in one day. There is no escape to anything in this life. What is happening around there seems to be not much choice to choose from the only thing that can be done is face it. Its neary end of the semester i found out that i still learn nothing. Its increadible first time in my life, feels that i have learn nothing as if its a long holiday now. What have i been doing, actually i also don't know. Why i have turn up this way now, i also not sure about it. Too much happening around, might be the cause making people feel tired all the time, and give me an unbreathable brain, never stop thinking and looking for solution. Plus test time is here which is equal to dome day. Really hope can turn back time or just let the time freeze for a while. So that can change certain thing that now keep getting worse, so that can start to improve myself in another way, so that i am normal a bit where there is day and night in my life.

Complication

Life is not as easy as being said in word,

There is nothing that is straight,T

here is always bend and corner,

There is no way we can avoid it,

No matter how much you try to avoid,

No matter how much you try to narrow it,

It will always come back to you,

The longer the time for avoiding,

The more corner it turns,

The more narrow it become,

There is time that we have to wait,

Wait for the correct time to strengthen it,

But every single second we waited,

It changes either become narrower or more corners,

No matter what are the action taken,

There is its pro and cons,

After each turn we will never know what come next,

What are the things awaiting after the bend,

There is always sacrifices,

There is no such thing as easy in this life,

Complication is always a symbol of life.

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Things never stop coming. I feel like i am under Mt. Everest and now have to walk all the way up. It like under a pile of dirt that now i am trying to get out of it. Finishing a task is replace by more then one new task. After solving one problem there come more. Even today i let myself relax and didn't think of anything, didn't do anything but just relax the whole day its only on the physically not mentally. Even though there is no movement that shows there is busyness, but mind can't seems to be stop thinking for even a minute. How do we rest our mind. Things come and go all the time but it never stop even for a while. Have a great news a while ago, where i know this coming holiday will be a suffer again. All time is booked again a month ahead. When i can find a time to really get out of all this endless things. Get out in a state that not even thinking about a thing but only to have total fun and relax. Things seem to be endless even though sitting down watching movie, brain still keep on moving keep on wondering. Is there any thing that can this thing stop just for a little while. How i really wish time ticking for a while.

Possible Become Impossible

There is no such thing as impossible if we want to make it possible. Just that it is depend on how much we want it to be possible and how much effort we put into it. Ever since the opening of this semester seems to be zero effort, don't know why but there is an impossible feeling to put an effort into anything. Evertime when want to make it possible, some how it become impossible. There is not a thing that have been done, that seems to goes the way it should be. Everthing is like out of my hands. Even want to take it into hands it, there is some things that keep making me pulling back. Don't know the reason why. Even there is a target infront of me, there is things that i would like to chase after or go after but there is no effort made. Since there is not an effort made even the possible has beceome impossible for me now. Even the easies thing that can be done had become hard. What i have been thinking for now? Why there is a force pulling me back from the things that i want to do even though i know that that particular thing is important. Why can't i get back to my usual self where i did everthing in line. Is it because of there is too many think to think of that i don't even know which one to start with? If this keep going on, the possible also had become the impossible.

Limits

Anything that happen around us sometime we just let it be, just act that we do not want to know too. No matter how good you act, there is just a limit when you can't stand it anymore. People does not have to be tell what to do but have to do on their own. Every single thing have to be told then i wonder what you actually are. There is time that we just don't wanna care what people are saying, Within listening there is time you can't control youself to be quiet anymore cause its over your limit. There is time people keep giving reason to slow thing down, if tomorow you have another thing to do then will you prospone again what should be done for the coming day. Everyone have a same old thing to do, not that you are the only one. Others can survive why can't you? Keep saying i don't know how to do or its a lot to do or it is impossible will never get thing done on time. Without trying and sacrifices how can one get what they one? How much is a person limits, we never know, what will happen when the limits is off, we will never know.

Mirror (Part3)

Everything seems to be going back to the original. But who knows one day, the wife started to be crazy again, ever since her mother in law is living together with them, which is the husband mother, the wife dislike her even from the beginning. The wife has an attitude that much people don't like what to say mother in law. A wife that do things that is good for herself without thinking of her own family, in others her children and husband. One day she said to her husband, i won't step another step into that house unless your mother is not there. Without hesitation the husband told this to his brother and sister which have lose trust to him before. Everyone was piss off because of this. Why do he hear his wife until this type of level. What are they to say so ever since they didn't even pay for the house and it's not theirs. At the end they just fulfill what he wanted and just ask the mother to come visit their house since each and everyone are staying at different places. They can't do anything to the wife since she is pregnant then, do not wanna hurt those that does not involve. It's a pity that their children got this type of mother around which as mention earlier do not really care for the good of her family. There is time even the children complain that their mother are insane. Imagine kids saying this words, children don't tell lie, they always split out the truth. Now that they have a new born baby, that need a lot of things, it is time to see how they will survive this difficulty. Later story will be continue in another part.

Wait or go after it

As far as eyes can see,

As near as thy hand touches,

Like roses bloom and closes,

Each day awaiting thou,

Fish follow the water,

Upstream and downstream,

Looking for new adventure,

Moving forward without looking back,

Sun rises, moon and star come by,

Sand flows through tiny vessel,

Each drop of sand shows time,

Thee did not realize thy were waiting,

Thy should not wait,

Thy should chase after thy adventure,

With courage and spoonfuls of hope,

One day thy should find thee.

TOKEN OF APPRECIATION

Another day had gone by and a new day had come. In this life of mine, there is not much to tell as everything that had being going on now is only a boring routine. There is things that can be shared and there is things then i wanna keep it to myself, a little secret of mine.

Everyday i wake up in the morning,

Doing the same old chores,

Hoping that time will pass by,

And come another new day,

Every happening in a day,

There is happiness and there is sorrow in it,

There is time when people ask question,

Question that does not make sense,

Question that you cannot help to answer at all,

Questions that they can get a solution,

From thy people around them,

Question that those not concern us at all,

Still we try to help them,

It is hard sometime to answer question,

But still we try our best to help,

We need not to be repay,

And yet only a little appreciation is needed,

A simple say of thanks is enough to fulfill,

Indeed we didn't get the words,

And yet being given faces,

Faces that make you feels,

After what we had done for them,

That's how they repay us

Why should we help them even from the beginning?

Not every time everything that we had done for some one will be appreciated, no matter it is a small or big thing. Helping people is not a doubt, people appreciate the help or not is surely a doubt. It they did not appreciate it, its fine, but in return they show faces to us, where we will have a feeling why should i help u form the beginning and yet if i did not help, you started to give me faces, what should i do the next time i meet this situation with the same person? As a matter of fact not all deed is repay by goodness but other way round.

FAITH & TEST

Everthing that happen around us, most of us will take it as faith. Means things that will happen, a test from above. In this world all the thing that we do, that we see around us, no matter it is good or it is a disaster, its all a test. Take bath for example, there is people that hate taking early bath, there are people that felt lazy yo do so, there are people that like it. Try asking people that to take bath to do so, for them its hard, then it turn out to be a test. Faith, not every faith are acceptable, especially the bad one, when things like this occur, people usually had two choices, face it or escape from it. By facing it, it might turn our good or vise versa, running away from it bring the sames result too come to the worse part it will never end. As you run it follows you, it keeps chasing you, at the end no choice have to face it too. This is what we call faith, it is your turn to be tested on it, then no matter how far you run it will follow you, and haunt you down. Things never go away that easily if it were meant for you.

Raya break is here ever since Saturday, day by day seeing people going home to their cozy place, people around uni become less and less as day pass by. Even the food become less and less as day passes by. There will be a time where food supply stops and its time to survive on our own. There is nothing to do as an entertainment here accept all the assignment given before the holiday which we won't call that entertainment. Event though there is a lot of things that can be done, but without the mood to do it, no matter how long the time given, nothing can be done. Hopefully as time passes by the mood will come. This is also what we called faith and test. Its our faith that we stay here and it is a test for us to control our mood and adapt to every changes that will occur this time.....FAITH & TEST

Deep Into It

Its really hard to understand a person by their appearance and also the emotion on their face. Every smile there is something hidden in it. How a person can pretend to be another when there are in a wracked situation is a hard thing to do. No matter how others feels that you are happy enough but deep inside you know that you are not and you are just pretending to be one. This happen when one would not like others to worry, to felt unhappy and uneasy. There is time when tears is coming by but when staying with others, we try to stop it from flowing down our cheeks and try to think of the happy things that ever happen, trying so hard to control our emotion. When we are alone, we can't stop it from flowing down anymore as we know we will not make others worried. It is hard to judge how a person feel when they are smiling and playing along. The time they play along is the time that they forget and let go of the sadness within, all the things that make one heart broken is being let go that time. When there are alone once again all those unhappy though come back, roaming the mind and soul. By its skin we can never see what is inside a person. Deep within there is things that keep bothering. That make you feel u wanna let the tears bring in away. Anything that has make a person heart broken, seems to take away their soul, but the heart is still there it never be gone. Even there is attempt to repair the broken heart, it is the same old heart. Things can't be change easily.

Its HARD to Break a DIAMOND

What an idea to break a diamond with bare hand. It is a PREPOSTEROUS thing. Heart as hard as DIAMOND now just because of THERE ARE MISSING WIRE IN YOU BRAIN or THERE ARE WRONG WIRING IN YOUR BLOODY STUPID BRAIN. Never try to think of good for all but only thinking of YOURSELF. God DAMN SELFISH. Starting it all by you own NOW still BLAMING others. Making people to HATE you is that all you can think about. Well this is the word, YOU HAVE NOTHING TO DO AS YOU HAVE GOT EVERYTHING. If the case if you have got everything its FINE!!. but you got NOTHING accept the few cloths on you. STUPID BASTARD, you are making other to SUFFER. SUFFER yourself is enough DON'T DRAG others into it. Seems the others is not as FREE AS YOU. WHY not try to get people meaning, try to accept people goodness? All this while being everyone is being good to you, WHAT THE FUCK are you thinking? THINKING THE OTHER WAY ROUND? If people were to think the other way round then IT HAS BEEN WHEN THE SUN RISES DURING THE NIGHT!!! You are now in chaos, but still doing things that is 1000% IMPOSSIBLE FOR OTHERS IN A CHAOS LIKE YOU ARE DOING? What can i say there is nothing other says will get into your BLOODY MIND. All you know is listen to the one that got you into this trouble. Even the one closest to you can clear your mind. WHY DON'T YOU STOP TO LISTEN ANT THINK YOU HEAD OUT OF IT FIRST!! WHAT HAVE SHE GIVEN YOU??? JAMPI????? What make you change until this extant?? What can we do? ALL that i can think of is to GIVE YOU A LESSON!! But will others thinking of GIVING YOU a second chance, or THIS IS THE LAST OF IT?? People called it STUPID, but this is what i will say you are not only STUPID BUT ALSO SELFISH. People say wait me come back then settle it down. ITS TOO LONG. By the time i get back i can't imagine what would iT be like already. IT WILL LOOK LIKE WORLD WAR BY THEN......... :-(

SHIT make me no mood STUDY OT DO ANYTHING ELSE!!!...T.T

BaD THINGs always happen at once!!

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When there is mess, it come around at the same time. Even my test today has no hope. even myelf is in a mess. Health is not helping. Don't know what to say. In mess there is mess again. It always come together in my whole life. Its not only FAITH its FACT now. Why things have to get worse from time to time. Can it never be solve? What is the reason to ask someone to get out when the place don't even belong to you? By doing some decision, with the thinking that this matter will get better and slowly fate away with time. But it continues on unstop....What the HELL is this! Can't they realize it this is hurting each other...STUPID!!!!!! Then what happen need to give opinion again? Of course the same answer will be obtain from all cause people HATE them already. Hate can be reduce is there is changes in the one you hate but it keep GETTING WORSE! HOW DO YOU EXPECT PEOPLE TO JUST LET YOU GO!!!!!! Its like All against ONE...Give it up already....Is making people worried, angry to the boiling point is all that you can do? Need people to tolerate with you, but you never tolerate others. HOW DO YOU EXPECT PEOPLE TO SUPPORT YOU when you do things that not even a person liking it? IT'S a WASTE OF TIME reasoning whith people like this. Better to ask them to go as far as possible NO MATTER WHAT RELATION IT IS THERE ARE TO YOU. Opinion, opinion and opinion STOP ASKING IT FROM ME.........

Come and go....

This is the time when everyone seems to be busy. There is a lot of things that come together at the same time. There is no way to push it away but try the best to prepare for it, complete it and also to solve it. What is the most important thing now is to manage time so that everthing fit in. There is always sacrifices if we need to get thing done and to reach for the star we wish for all this while. Even though we will not know what is the result, its either we can make it or not. The best wat to satisfy yourself when we can't make it is that we know that we had try our best. Thinking that we didn't done enough is a suffer. But everytime things happen, there is always dissatisfaction saying that i should have done this earlier or any other reason that make us dissatisfied. It is easy to say it out, that we wanna let go and change in the time to come, but it is hard for us to forget everthing as if it never happen before.

Life=wind?

When wind blows through a place is like that same wind will not blow again at the same place but it will keep on moving to other places. When the chances pass then there will not be another chance. When we miss an event then it will be hard to wait for another apportunity. When time passes, we cant turn back time. It is as if every moment if our life is like the life of wind. It is seems to be so. In this life there is a lot of things that can't be blown away by the wind. There is also things that once it is blown away it will come again repeating itself, there are also things that can't even being blown away and stay for a long time. Things that can be blown away sure is a relief, stuf that does not repeat itself even after a long period is sure to be good. But all this will not happen in reality. In another word it is preposterous. Living is not as easy as wind blowing by where everything will go together with it. Life is always a challange to human kind. Anything that come, goes or stay have to be face eventhough there is hardship in it, eventhough there is a need to be bad sometime, sometime it makes people suffer, what that is to be done have to be done. This is the way life moves. There is place in life where it can go like the wind and there is thing that remain.

Mirror (part2)

As people started to do the same thing to him, and he feel it. Since where he is living with his child and wife also being paid by others so he made the decision to go back to the farm he rented to do farming. As his child was studying in a school in the city where he is staying before, he plan to transfer his child school to one near his farm house. This in return make others think that what ever happening is actually making the children to suffer. So at last he make a decision to take 2 hour journey going and returning for the children to study in town instead transfer them to a school near the farm house. Since he is living with his mother before, now she is left alone in the house. Ever since then the others has to visit there more often. For how long this can last. When it don't last that long after all after a few weeks, they started to come home once in a while after picking up children from school and sometime overnight there. It seems everything is coming back slowly to the life before. Will everything go back to what it was? Lets see the progress in part 3.

Back to normal

H1N1 break is finally over today. Eventhough the break is over we must still becareful and allert. For four days been enjoying life in an fully air condition room with common room that has tv in it and also the heater while taking bath, is finally come to an end. Life has return to it normal pace. Now that the break is end, Pekan life has come back with classes, busses which make me dizzy evertime. Hopefully things will go well and be better then before. It had been over one month and there is still nothing that got into my small little brain. Breaks has end hopefully can start to get things into line..

hyper superb u..

H1N1...since it is declare holiday then alomost all are home accept those who are from Sabah and Sawarak. Well what kind of arrangement is this asking people to move to other block with the reason wanna spray or kill germs or what ever which i din't see anything is being done. For now i am staying at the international studen block well, its quite nice as it is air condition, meet two more new friends, there is television to watch at the common room with hyper nice and comfortable chair. Accept for the world best connection, the line is unstable but it is ok.. Kill germs another issue what about those block which is not close? There is no germs there, i don't think so... If this is so then its pity for them live with the germs..What a weird decision.

Now lets go to how they make sure how everyone staying is all sabah and sawarak. What they do is they take keys then they go to every block knock on every door, if no one answering guess what they do they take the key open it to make sure no one is in there. So don't even thinking of hiding. They check ic to see where are you from so there also no room to tell lies and don't wanna go home. Lucky me there are calling me everyday and ask me to move everday but everytime there are no one in the office so cant take key. Until this morning they call and at last got the key to move..

UPSIDE DOWN

Yeah special holiday..but here staying in the uni everything seems don't goes well. To those west malaysians all are as is being ask to go home saying that they have no reason to stay. They even provide buses now to bring people back. As for those who are staying here its more rediculous, they ask us to gather and stay at several block only. Where the room is has a totally unoccupied place. By the number of people staying here actually there is not enough place for each and every of us to move to an unoccupied room or bed. Come to think of it the reason they are doing so is to let the virus died alway by it own as it can died outside the body within 7-8 hours. There are closing several block only for this purpose. How about those that are not clear now? What an idea...Hopefully everything will go well soon.

Mirror (Part 1)

In the olden days, there are this war between soldier of the same nation. It started when one of the soldier started to taking every things that the others had done as his. All the people around him started to ignore his existence whenever he is around. As time goes by he become more and more invisible to everyone but the things he had done does not put him in a better situation but become worse. He started to take back things that he had give to others, everthing which is his he ask it back, he even throw off anything that others had given him. This goes the same to his family everything that he bought he take it back from them, everything that other gave him he throw it away. Scared of people knowing it he will just said "Oh, this is old stuff of mine and it is all cant be used". But the truth always review when the maid in the house said that all the thing that he throw is all the things that people had gave him. For this not only his friends but also his family started to hate him, started to show him faces. Started to do the same thing to him by just giving him back all the things which is his and bought new one for their own. This is the end of part one.....

Life of a drop of water

Life is like water flowing through a river,

Every minute every second,

Each drop of water is at a different place,

It never look back the what it has passes,

Never even stop to think,

Where is the next destination,

It keeps going no matter what the weather are,

Storm, earth quake, tornado, flood,

it will not look back,

But keep on moving,

No matter what is the obstacle it keep on,

Winter is not an obstacle even it became ice,

It stills start to move on when the summer is there,

The only time it will be gone,

Is only when drought come,

Then a new life will start again,

This is how life looks for us.

Is there a REASON?

There is time when we have nothing to do. Just nothing to think about. Even though the truth is you have a bunch of thing awaiting to be completed. There is time we feel boring and yet we don't feel like doing things. This type of feeling sometime make us feel tired. Why are we in this stage sometime? What does it means? Is there any reason behind this as there are always reason behind everything. Or this is because of the things that we have a few days ago, an effect from the thing that we have done? This is all a question that sometime, its does not even have an answer at all.

Cross the to Globe Reach It

There are so many things in this life that is hard to grab on, sometimes no matter how hard we had tried we will not get hold at the things that we want. We want so many things in our life so many wishes, so many task to deal with. There are a lot of sacrifices needed no matter in what we are doing. Even as simple as to sit around. To find a comfortable place to sit, when it is comfortable what do we need to pay for it, will we be able to sit thee the whole day long or for certain time only, will we be allow to sit that long at that place. Everything in this life does not come and goes easily. Even when you get that something you might someday lose it to. It is easy to decide which thing we must do in this life but it is hard reaching for it. We might travel thousands of miles just with the wish of going to the pyramid. In order to go there we have to do much so that we can travel. To get hold of a things it always need us to travel all around the globe just only to reach it not even knowing whether we will succeed or not. It always a challenge no matter how easy or hard that thing is.

letting go might bring new hope

A person that has too much appreciation will feel the hardest when a hilarous decision is made. Even though it only create a small hole rather then a big one within. A loss of even a tiny bit will need to take a lot of the courage that is there. To a normal person this decision might have no effect to them at all, but to some people this is a huge one.

The step have been taken, and yes it leave a big hole, as if there is a part of our soul had been taken away. Even though decision had been made and there is no return. There is still a hope of giving chances to them when one day, they wake up and realise what they have been doing now and before are a mistake.

Chances can't be given by everyone but to me there must be chance given to them even this will only be the one and only chance they will be having. There is a will to change there is always a way to forget the pass and and to forgive those who losses their chance before. Its all depend on themselves whether they can wake up some day and appreciate what others have given them, all the sacrifices then other were trying to do, to give them what is the best. Hope this will be the last time this type of decision have to be made.

Same or Different Kind is Better

Three different types or animal live in a pack at three different places. There are the tiger, the pig and also the dog family. One day while, during the winter, there is a tiger family which is caught between a storm while looking for new home so they force to stay where there are when winter come. During the winter it is hard for them to look for food as all the animal were all staying in their own home with enough food for the season. Therefore the tiger is busy looking for food which is impossible to do so. When daddy and mummy tiger feel to hungry they decide to make their children as a meal. They ate one of the two cubs. When the other cubs realizes that its life is in danger he ran away.

Living in a farm there is a watch dog, watching over sheeps for the farmer. Working hard during the summer to make sure that no sheep runs away or getting eaten by wolf the dog help the farmer to look after all the sheep. When winter come, all the sheep were kept in the warehouse where it is warm while the watch dog were left outside in the cool. The dog soon felt it is worthless doing job for the farmer so the dog move on with its own path.

At the same time there is a herd of pig living also in a farm. Everyday the farmer feed them with food give them water to drink but never realise what will happen to them. During the summer there is a pair of pig which give birth to three little baby pig. As winter come by people start to come and visit the farm to chose which one is the best to be use during this festive time. Both of the pig was choosen therefore they are taken away leaving the baby pig. As soon as they realize what will happen to them in the future they ran away too.

As all the three different animal looking for their new own life there meet each other after a period of travel. First they all feel as if they meet their enemies. But since all of them are young mamale they tend to continue their venture together. As time pass by they finally become friends and they live together after that.

Do really kindness always get its rewards?

There was once a pair of husband and wife with two children and a baby waiting for delivery. They have few brotheres and sister. They are a friendly couple at first but this keep on changing from a open wife to a controling life kind of wife. It started when the kind husband answered i will ask my wife opinion first. From that time on her husband started to lose the thing that he had. It is normal to do so in making some decision but in certain places its like the husband is beeing given a traditional medicine so that he would listen to what ever the wife is saying. This goes on and on until the husband family feel that she is not respectable. Instead of controling things happening around she even control money, life, buisness, but in the other hand she is as if a person which can move even a bit. Without doing anything and think of her family all she do is spending all she want. As time come by the husband family start to hate her as because of her all sort of agurment have been going on between the husband and his family. Its just because he is scared of her. As a man he have nothing now every now and then doing buisness by the help of his family members but now people stop helping because they think that its not worth helping. In another words even the majesty queen of a country will not just put aside the people who help her. Hence people around them are discussing about giving up helping them even though they know that this might result in missing yet another member of the hall. this is a hard decision to make as the one giving up is not only one but all of them. The result seems to be unpleasent to the husband but becaouse of the wife which is unworthy to receive anything from anyone this might be the result and yet kind people also have been punish together when they are staying with those who is not. What will happen if you were to say which decision should be taken? Stop them from doing so or just let them goen on with it? Considering that the husband in this tale is someone that see you grow and give you much knowledge?

Blank

It had been a week since arriving my second home. There is nothing to be done just sitting around, doing what people are usually doing when the had nothing to do. The internet here is just like a snail that had no way to go. Either moving slowly toward its destination once in a few day or just stopping there resting without moving towards anything.
There had been classes as it can be said as an average of 2 hour a day. Apart from that its like a blank paper without anything written on it. Its a week where classes don't fill my brain with much things. And yet there is another week to come.
Some will think that its a week we can relax before the real time start, but for me its a tiring week. There are a lots of things to think about and there is no room to reject any calls that keep on coming each day. As this intresting day goes by the only way to relax myself is by spending time outside my second home. When to watch 2 movie in a week, it is to be consider as a nice one. From a cartoons to action movie. Well hopefully for the time to come life will be more intresting and releasing.

It's Crazy,,,,and weird...

Flasher its crazy to do sort of things. it's like showing private parts to lady.....?? what the world is like now... youngster moving around doing stuff like this. When people get old they don't even allow their parents to see the private parts not to say to move around aiming for lady who are alone and ringing people house bell then stand there half naked so can show that private stuff... What a weirdo....... Un Understandable for the people around here now............

Back Again

Since two month ago now back again to uni life... Arrive in uni 2 days ago, move into new room which i think is better then the previous one. This few days is like so bored had nothing to do accept eat, sleep, watch movie nothing else. Wanna serve internet its like impossible in room. Since its boring so came to BPA to online..haha..... well have to go Pekan after two weeks wondering whats its like there but the transport time is still unclear. well for morning class the bus will move at 6.15 the latest still unclear....dunno what i heard also from the old soo called taklimat.............

silence

There is always things that make us keep quiet and would not like to tell it to anyone. As sometime it will bother others. the world now is as silence as before when you have nothing to do and no people to talk to. In this silence world, it is the best time to think over the things that had been happening around us, a time to let our mind in peace. Its a great time when you are alone when you wish to, but its a lonely life when you have nothing to do with the hope that time will wash by as the wind blow. When you are home alone, doing nothing but watching movies, have no one the talk to the time seems to stop. Its a long day even sometime this are the things that we wish for, to be alone.

ABCs for happiness

ACCEPT~Accept others for who they are and for the choices they've made even if you have difficulty understanding their beliefs, motives, or actions.
BREAK AWAY~ Break away from everything that stands in the way of what you hope to accomplish with your life.
CREATE~ Create a family of friends whom you can share your hopes, dreams, sorrows, and happiness with.
DECIDE~ Decide that you'll be successful and happy come what may, and good things will find you. The roadblocks are only minor obstacles along the way.
EXPLORE AND EXPRIENCE~ The world has much to offer, and you have much to give. And every time you try something new, you'll learn more about yourself.
FORGIVE AND FORGET~Grudges only weigh you down and inspire unhappiness and grief. Soar above it, and remember that everyone makes mistakes.
GROW~ Leave the childhood monsters behind. They can no longer hurt you or stand in your way.
HOPE~Hope for the best and never forget that anything is possible as long as you remain dedicated to the task

IGNORE~Ignore the negative voice inside your head. Focus instead on your goals and remember your accomplishments. Your past success is only a small inkling of what the future holds.
JOURNEY~Journey to new worlds, new possibilities, by remaining open-minded. Try to learn something new every day, and you'll grow.
KNOW~Know that no matter how bad things seem, they'll always get better. The warmth of spring always follows the harshest winter.
LOVE~Let love fill your heart instead of hate. When hate is in your heart, there's room for nothing else, but when love is in your heart, there's room for endless happiness.
MANAGE~Manage your time and your expenses wisely, and you'll suffer less stress and worry. Then you'll be able to focus on the important things in life.
NOTICE~Never ignore the poor, infirm, helpless, weak, or suffering. Offer your assistance when possible, and always your kindness and understanding.
OPEN~Open your eyes and take in all the beauty around you. Even during the worst of times, there's still much to be thankful for.
PLAY~Never forget to have fun along the way. Success means nothing without happiness.
QUESTION~Ask many questions, because you're here to learn.
RELAX~Refuse to let worry and stress rule your life, and remember that things always have a way of working out in the end.
SHARE~Share your talent, skills, knowledge, and time with others. Everything that you invest in others will return to you many times over.
TRY~Even when your dreams seem impossible to reach, try anyway. You'll be amazed by what you can accomplish.
USE~Use your gifts to your best ability. Talent that's wasted has no value. Talent that's used will bring unexpected rewards.
VALUE~Value the friends and family members who've supported and encouraged you, and be there for them as well.
WORK~Work hard every day to be the best person you can be, but never feel guilty if you fall short of your goals. Every sunrise offers a second chance.
X-RAY~Look deep inside the hearts of those around you and you'll see the goodness and beauty within.
YIELD~Yield to commitment. If you stay on track and remain dedicated, you'll find success at the end of the road.
ZOOM~Zoom to a happy place when bad memories or sorrow rears its ugly head. Let nothing interfere with your goals. Instead, focus on your abilities, your dreams, and a brighter tomorrow.