A whole new year has started weeks ago, even so life seems to be getting worse and worse. Trying hard to be better, trying hard so that everything seems fine and nothing seems to be wrong. Does trying hard enough satisfied us, does trying hard will change our life?
Trying hard to make things seems to be fine, does not change anything what that is wrong is still there they never will be erase. It's like creating a mud without the existence of soil. Something just cant be change no matter how hard you try. But some has a great change, once was a caring, a person that will listen, a person that will remind and help has turn into something else. Is it a play of feeling or all this is just a illusion before, or there are pretending all this while, or it is their sudden change, or there is something that causes this. All that one hope for is to get a better life at a new time. All this seems to be hope that is hard to be fullfill vice versa its full of desperation. Trying hard to be better, trying hard to create a newer life a better one seems to be bringing a person to a time with more desperation, with more knife stricking in feeling more pain than ever. This is especially when there is no one around to shared it, no one around to accompany, the people avaiable seems to be adding the pain. The only thing that a person can do is to talk to a dummy, creating imagination that it will listen, reply, say comforting word, and accompany them in this desperate world.
