Running against time

Well after a few days of erm..a more relax day we call it...Now is the time to run against time again. after checking find out that there is a lot appointment made from morning till the evening. And 1 more day date line for the new stack of messy paper to be completed. This time the stack of paper get thicker good for that company means increase in business but the important thing is it is good to me also more time taken more $$ haha...There is a question finish 2 month thing in a week and spend petrol $$ once or finish 2 month thing in a week and spend two times petrol fees? Which one do you prefer? Why time always running out in my life? Well have to go on no matter what there is always things popping out when you are busy and when you are not it is really like sitting whole day doing nothing and bored to death. This is as if there had already discuss which day to make you busy hahaha....

Mixture

Yeah!!! after few day of seeing all the blur hand writing at last finish one job. Hoping to get another one even it is suffering trying to read all the unknown code written by those sales man. But at least by doing so my time will pass easily. Boring when there is nothing to do and so much to think. Better to do a lot of thing rather then thinking too much. Will have more white hair growing. Well its another day when all thing try to settle down again. Everything seems to be cooling down but the situation is getting worsen. At least in slow motion but resolving. Causing pain to a person is better then causing pain to everyone. There are always things that we can't predict will happen and it happen eventually. No matter how hard we try to avoid it to happen it happened maybe some people call this faith. Just believe its a faith then will be feeling better even knowing that there is always a cause of everything and effect of everything that had happened. There is things that will not show effect right away but for the time to come things are going to change. As anger, hate, rises even with pity, sadness, and blood relationship there is not way life will be the same. As time is moving on it become harder to unite as one. All of this can still be avoided if there is a sudden change in that one self.

Incredible

Whoa!! what a company 2 years already but the invoice not even in order yet. still have to wait from day to day for them to look for it. Need to be fast only 2 days for settling invoice for a month. Nice to have things to do rather then doing nothing. luckily do not have to do audit for them. 2 years didn't clear account i wonder how they know how much they earn per year?? Well all this while its a tough day and it will continue. Just have to live with it there is nothing that we can do to change the fact of what had being happening around us. Face it......no other solution...

no matter it is good or bad this is the only thing i can do for now. have a lot of faces in a day... what a tired thing to do come to think of it. UNPREDICTABLE THINGS ALWAYS HAPPEN!!

STOP IT ALREADY!!!!!

Its like hell here, bomb keep coming in, explosion continues and never stop and the fire never stop burning not even getting slower.What a damn fucking day. When a problem is stop there come another as if there is nothing else to do. Problem cause by the same person, is really stubborn if i yield at her face now there will be a war as if what happen in Palestine now the world will turn around. I like to do it but i can't as it does not involve only a person it involve another. Tolerance i don't think it is time to do that as it doesn't happen right in front of me. I can't do anything but to talk to the one that have being hurt. If it happen in front on me sure she will feel the pain already piercing right her heart. There is no pity on a person like that unless to give a lesson that cannot be forgotten. Its not the time forgive and forget anymore its time to take real action. Action that can turn the world around and make everything different. There is no need to do so if she can think in a correct position. A person that do not have anything, what else do you want? People are doing everything they can to help so a better life can be achieve. Its not that others feel pity or what ever its just a kind ship to help each other. For now must as well let you feel what it is like to be on your own where no one standing on your side and earn your living yourself without any capital or so..See what you can do without all the help and support people have given you all this while.

Think everything as a new beginning

As time goes by, old things keep going on and new things keep coming in as if the water is flowing switfly from time to time. The drop of water is always the same drop of water the different is the time and place it has been. No matter where you go every matter that has not been solve will be always there waiting for you no matter how far of how long you went, the thing is still there. To move forward is not to run from it as it will always follow no matter where you are. The question is always there looking for you no matter how far you when and how busy you are trying to forget about it. Just that by doing so it can help to release you burden a little and think of it calmly when you have free time within your busyness.

Well this is a find holiday when there is a job for you rather then staying at home doing nothing. Its nice working here calculating $$ all the while especially now as festive is near. Busyness is good it help us to let go what we need to let go as we don't have the time to think about it much. Well today will be a day to relax, off the duty today. Luckyly is not as boring in the place as i can surf when there is nothing to do. What a nice place to have a job.

6 to hate and 5 to be scared off

1. Listening and solving things that involve a lot of problems. Things that make

you mad even to think of it not to say to listen and solve it. It make things more

difficult when its involve relationship which is getting looser and looser. Don't

wanna make any decision that can make it looser but tighten it back.

2.In the middle of everything. Every detail of what is happening around you is

reported to you hoping that you can solve it. Why not they solve it themselves by

sitting down and discuss it among themselves instead of telling everything to a

person to be a middle man?

3.Express of frustration. Every time there is thing going on is there a need to

report it to your middle man so that record can be keep and treat your middle

man as a place to release all your frustration?

4.Looking backward. Every time there is an argument it is appropriate to look

back of what has happen 20 years ago? You don't know what happen that

time and the reason why it happen. We should be looking forward to put

down what had happen in the pass. So get over it!!!

5.Blaming others. Every happening has it cause do not blame it on others all

the while look in yourself once in a while maybe the problem started

because of yourself. Its hard to do so but at least try to listen and accept

others idea. There are also thing that you are not sure about so why keep

thinking of the reason yourself and say it out before you confirm it. Wanna

know the truth ask the person involve. Don't jump into conclusion all the

while. It create uncertain had and sadness.

6. Not reviewing. Every word that have been said even it is words that hurts

has it meaning deep inside. Even though sometime it is hurting to hear those

words. But calm down and think of it, it always contain things that can guide

you in life. But why some people can't understand this no matter how many

time i tell? Did they not think over it again? And they cause the same thing

happening again. I can't solve it every time.

7. Misunderstand that never been understand. Sometime it is hard to corp

the meaning of certain thing and sometime when you are not in a mood it

is hard to listen anything others says When you realise it others might just

pretend there are find and accept the fact that you have misunderstood

but they keep it as a record and keep saying it as if they can understand

what is misunderstand and it create a chaos again.

8.People that keep on expressing without listening. There are people that

keep on complaining and never stop to listen. So when your are the

listener and you have some idea to help instead of getting thing straight

you get a boom in your face. When this happen just try to act that it

never happen but its hard to forget even though you know that person have

this type of attitude all the while that he or she can just forget that they had

boom you in the face.

9.Receiving phone calls. There is always a chaos within each day, each minute

there is a report or else recorded and is reported once within half a year. I

rather receive once in half a year rather than receive every phone call with

a report in it. It does not make you mad, but it also make you worry as a lot

of thing will happen as it get worse. By the time you have to

think of a solution already right on the spot so that more calls can be stop.

10.Money matters. Each topic everyday is about money and money and money

is there anything else to be say when calling a person that you will not see

for months or the person you will see only for one quarter time of a year? Is

there anything to do to increase monthly income? The same question is ask all

the time apart from reporting. The money a month that is earn is enough to

survive for months. Why not just get over it and live with what you have? All

that is matter the most in life is happiness and health. What is the good of

putting away all happiness for wealth? Is it wort it?

11.When being home. When the things to be hate occur. When all the 5 scary

things happen then the madness is generated. When this happen all the

things that is hated will come over looking for you without knowing it

place and time. All that you can do is either face it or run for it. As for me

i prefer running away from it let them solve it their selves. Don't wanna stuck

in the middle anymore. But i can't run my whole life.

REVIEWING

Confronting all the time...

Thinking of a solution,

Hoping that time will go on faster,

So that can run away,

Run far away from all this situation,

Situation that you don't want to deal with,

Things that you wanna let go forever,

If it can be let go,

To find a new life,

A life which can bring more hapiness,

A life which can let us let go of everthing,

Everything which is wondering in our mind,

Everything that bring difficulty,

Everything that make out nlife qand time freeze,

Which make an hour feels like a hundred year,

It seems i am running away,

Running away from all,

Keeping as far away from this life of mine,

Which make me not the real me,

Which make my life out of order...

HEAD TURNING AROUND

Need a lot of idea to solve a thing. Try answering this question. Imagine you have a person that raise you up and of course are very close to you. As that person is the one that have bring ur parents to this world. Let say that person is P. P has an old style of thinking which make all her children think that she is stuborn, always look down on her own children, unsupportive sometime, and always make a fuss of everything. But all the thing that has been coming out of her mouth has its own intention which when come to think of it carefully, all the thing that had been said by P is actually logical. And now all of her children seems not to accept her and keep pushing her from place to place. You are the one that she like the most now and she had come back to your place as you are home but because of certain things that she cannot stand she have to live in her other son house for a moment until it is gone. But all that have been said is my wife dislike her it is Ok for her to be here but make sure she don't talk much. How can a child say such a thing. For now what will you do? Is it hard just to look after your own mother, just give her a room in your house.......? Does this thing seems to be difficult...there is no reason to say no to this matter....think about who she is and what she says then there is always reason behind it. The thing is sometime its fussy but when you sit down and think of it, it make sense. So..if you are in this situiation what will you do ...what will you say to the others, what type of desicion will you make?

Question to be answer desicion to be make..

there is new incident each day,

incident that can make you turn upside down,

turn you away from your normal self,

which make you extra ordinary mad.

not only that there is also incident that make you sad,

the incident which when you heard,

it breaks your heart into pieces.

there is time where you dunno what to do,

as every step taken has its risk,

a risk which will make a big different,

a different which concern all the structure,

the structure of your life and also others,

this is where every step taken will bring to a damage,

all that can be done is only to make the damage most little,

even the damage is the most minimum,

its still concern as the minimum damage of all,

is also a large one as it will break up every relationship,

ever created before,

is it right to take action for the sake of a person,

and thus destroying everything?

is it right to let it be,

and keep the hate in within and suffer on your own?

is it right to just ignore every happening around you,

and let it be solve with time,

as it concern the person that raise you up,

the person that teach you more thing,

more than you mother can give you...?

What a day...

Let me see home for 2 days already. Today wake up early again send people to the bus station then go buys one paint to paint house..wanna change environment a little....hehe.... herm then what else erm... moving flower vase from front to back and some other thing that is damn heavy. with this half day is gone...the best part is i felt asleep while waiting in the car for my mum to get the paint from shop....and its unbelievable hot here. Actually quite boring hehe even do a lot of stuft already this few days......Well this is the second day at home anyway... things will always come to me now slowly to make me busy. Just back for 2days but nest week time is booked already. Have to checkj my dairy for free time, will be a busy week from now on.

Feeling nice at home?

herm.. at home now juat back an hour before this is written. Knowing that there is a lot of happening that have to solve as i step out from the airport its really hurt cause i din't call home much so din't heard anything and reject some from call with the reason got test. Have to think a lot even in the holiday.. and its now only the first day of holiday cant even have a day of rest....wat a day. A time to make things up should be a day that is busier then my life in ump. Indirectly means more stress at home, holiday i don't think so at home its like a whole new war for me. Even feel happy cause can see family member but there is always things that have to be sort out when see them, things that can't be taken for granted easily. This is the worse case that i ever heard before so thinking of solving surely will be a headache. Hopefully all this will end in a correct way and will have a better holiday this time.