In the midle of the ocean

In the ocean there is a lot of nice things which include corals and different kind of fishes. But i don't know why when i set sail to catch fishes, i keep on catching whale, even if i dive indo the sea i can't see others accept whale. I fish whole day and yet the only thing i caught is whale. I don't know how much whale i have catch today, i can't even count. If only i could exchange this whales with something i like i will change all of it with one.
Apart from catching whale, i keep on getting bitten by crab when i pull up my net. It's hurt a lot that i can't even describe it. Waiting for the time for it to stop bitting. Plaster, oilment and medicine does not help. I don't know how much longer i can bare with it.
In this ocean, all of a sudden storm come then sun comes. This make me feel soo cold that i migh freeze at a time and hot at a time. I am hoping a mermaid will appear and transform me in to one so i can be friends with whale and crab that keep on bothering and hurting me. How much i hope and wish for it,it doesn't matter as i know this is something that never will be realise. It is like waiting water to flow uphill of a waterfall instead of downhill. Even so i still hope i still keep this as a hope and a wish.

MeT@m0rPho5is

Day passes followed by week, month and years. Everything in this world keeps on changing. Even the people around seems to be different even though they go by the same name and has the same looks. Compare to the nature which has the name sunny, winter, rain, and so on they are just the same. Having the same name but keep changing in their moods. Sometime it rains unstopable, sometime its just small rain, sometime it can't even rain when you wanted it to. This goes the same to others.

Maybe there are not changing, maybe that is what there are but never show, or trying to be some one else in front of everyone. Like what we say the day is sunny but we never know when it will become dreadfull creating drought or become as pleasant as just a crystal clear sky just nice for every one.

Apart from changing or showing ones true self, they might be still the same to everyone but just showing differences to certain people around them. Saying that people that leave in winter won't feel the cold the people leaving in non-seasonal place. Even the its the same winter, people from desert might feel its freezing while local there just feels cold.

Sometime there are no changes within that person, and others does not feel that there is changes but some people might feels that they had change as they fall too deep into them that even a slight change seems to be a lot. It feels just like summer changing into winter without any autumn in between or winter to summer without spring in between.

Others is that no people are changing but you yourself are, that make you feel all the people around you changes. Its just like us human creating pollution for the sack of wealth and dream which actually changes increase the temperature of the globe, that some how we think that the sun burn bigger creating hotter day. Just that we don't realise that we change ourself that make the people around us seems to be changing.

Puppet life

A whole new year has started weeks ago, even so life seems to be getting worse and worse. Trying hard to be better, trying hard so that everything seems fine and nothing seems to be wrong. Does trying hard enough satisfied us, does trying hard will change our life?
Trying hard to make things seems to be fine, does not change anything what that is wrong is still there they never will be erase. It's like creating a mud without the existence of soil. Something just cant be change no matter how hard you try. But some has a great change, once was a caring, a person that will listen, a person that will remind and help has turn into something else. Is it a play of feeling or all this is just a illusion before, or there are pretending all this while, or it is their sudden change, or there is something that causes this. All that one hope for is to get a better life at a new time. All this seems to be hope that is hard to be fullfill vice versa its full of desperation. Trying hard to be better, trying hard to create a newer life a better one seems to be bringing a person to a time with more desperation, with more knife stricking in feeling more pain than ever. This is especially when there is no one around to shared it, no one around to accompany, the people avaiable seems to be adding the pain. The only thing that a person can do is to talk to a dummy, creating imagination that it will listen, reply, say comforting word, and accompany them in this desperate world.

Cross Road

Cross road has four junction,

Cross road shows that decision have to be made,

Cross road determine the way that a person would like to go,

Cross road sometimes ended with U-turn,

Sometimes more cross road, more turns

And sometimes it leads to a non ending road,

There is time when cross road leads to more cross road,

Each time every decision is made,

There is no gurantee that it will end,

It migh continue to another decision,

Another problem or even a whole new world,

Chosing the correct cross road sometimes did bring you to a destination,

But when you are done with that place,

We sure will started to move on,

Meeting another new cross road,

There is also time when we want to return to the place,

Hence making another repeated decision at the same cross road,

Our road is hard to determine,

When you have made a decision doesn't means that it will not change,

When you go through that road once does not mean that you will never return,

There is no ending in making decision,

To which road a person is going to take when they meet a cross road.

Hidden trap as is in non existing

Hidden trap is something that we cannot see, even we predict that there is one some where. We won't know how the trap are design, we will never when and what will trigger the trap. When we know there is a trap we will just keep in mind to be careful. When we are not we fall into one. Sometime even we are alert we will not notice it. Sometime we even don't know that it is a trap until we fall into one. How is this related to existence? Existence of someone are some how being ignore sometime. Even they are rite beside you, but there is no intention to communicate or anything. When they see you alone they just left you there. They know you are there and yet a lot of things they do they will not think of you unless reminded by someone. This shows how small that person existence is. As in hidden trap we know it is there even know what is it but we just keep in mind not to trigger but not to release or give warning to the others who is coming and just leave it as what it is. If the people in your group does not says let stop moving and entrap the place then no one will care. Hence sometime existence of someone is notice just because of someone else existed beside them, when they are not around this is where they once again become un-notice and un-exist.

What am i in these world?

In this world i am born, there is a lot of thing that have been missing. What is the meaning of love, playfull, childhood, laughter, what is the true meaning of having family and friends around? All this have been a question. Is my existance in this world only as a person to fill one of the gap of population in this world? Is my existance in these world is only to see how life of others around me? Is it that all these while i only can see how happy people are, how they truly laugh, to see how warm their family are? Is it that my life has only the means to see but not the means to experience it myself? Is that the thing that i felt all this while can only be emptiness, sadness, anger and the will to create a better life for myself that is hence full of tears? Is this what i am to this world? Is that to people i am always the person who smile and seems to be happy? Is that to people i can have everything i want when actually all of it are only the things that i have in what the eyes are capable of seeing? Is it that hard that my only requirement is someone to tell me jokes, sit with me, talk with me once in a while some that all this emptiness and all this sadness will go away? As people always says the simplest thing in live is the hardest thing to achieve. The things that you see is not the thing that really symbolise a person. A person who smile and laugh at everything, deep down inside is just a person that has an empty soul to be feel with joys.

Act of poison

Scorpion are some things that people afraid of,

Afraid of its poison,

Hence there is no dreaming of getting close to it,

People will start to run or started to hit it,

Even so there are places where it is eaten,

Eaten by us human who is afraid of its poison,

Scorpion can be symbolise as us human,

So people are afraid of us,

Afraid in many direction and time,

There is time people will not want to get close to us,

Afraid that something bad will happen,

As if being sting by scorpion,

So there is time people start to run away and hide,

But there is also people that continue to face what ever in front of them,

Preparing to fight back, preparing to stand tall,

There is part in life that no matter how poisoning are you,

There is people that still dare to stand up and fight,

Scorpion using its poison to to defend themselves,

Scare of being killed,

We human sometime are being hated,

Just as how scorpion are being hated for protecting themselves,

They are innocent and yet there are threat,

There is always reason for being protective and defensive,

Anyway can be chosen even when poison have to be injected,

No matter how you regret for injecting the poison,

No matter how much you are being hate,

No matter how some people trying to avoid you,

Because of the poison inside,

What people don usually see is the purpose of that poison,

There is no doubt that there is also poison that has evil purpose,

But once we see the word poison,

Evil, bad, killer, all this words is the first thing come to mind,

Where as its true purpose are not being recognize