Sudden feel

After a week of torture,

There is a feeling of relief,

A feeling that can let me to let go of averything,

In the reliefness,

Hence there is an sudden feels,

Sudden feels that make one sad,

Worriness in within,

That cannot be avoid,

Tears flow without noticing,

Even with great entertainment,

It is hard to stop it,

Don't know the reason why,

It's time to find a place,

A place of nature,

That can calm me down,

A place where i can get away,

From all this sudden feeling,

The sudden feeling of sadness,

That has unknown reason.

Everthing is here!

No matter what calender we are using, almanac, lunar, everything doesn't matter another 2 month its the end of he year while lunar another 4 month will be sufficient. Its time for celebration and festival again. Since won't be able to join new year celebration no matter which one it is, it is better to take the time and have my own new year. Its almost the end of the semester, once again everything seems to be come in at once. There is a lot of things to be done and to be think of is like a pile of mountain that we need to climb out to the top. The submit is like as tall as Mt Everest now, no its taller then Mt Everest my own tallest mountain a new record. Even the holiday is still about a month away there is a lot of things that need to be thought of for the holiday. A whole new war is awaiting ahead. A war that need to be confront with much thought and carefull approach. Even though life will be though once more, ever since i have beeing born to face this type of life there nothing that can be done but to face it no matter how tired, how unreasonable some of the things are, how much i like to let go and have my own happy holiday. Its a mixture of unknown feeling of being happy to let go of study time a while, feeling desperate thinking of what is awaiting in front, feeling sad to think of what are thing that need to be done.

JUST DO YOUR PART?

Is just doing you part enough when working in a team? Its true that taks has been distributed that each person has their own task to do. This doesn't mean that you can ignore other part or other job. When you finish one should join into other task to help them finish early. Real life, do sales, get salary done, stock is not of my concern, becoming a cashier not my job also, i done mine you should do yours no matter how much the customer is, its your part not mine, i can relax customer is at the counter paying money, not selecting item now. You are not around you can pass you part to others why worry? Worry that people says you din finish your part? This is what team is for work together to accomplish something not you do this, and you do this and you do that then OK i done mine, bye.. and doing a thing do we need that much of people doing the same thing, cook a meal for 10 need 10 people to cook a dish what will the dish become, or worse still never even can accomplish it. Why need too may people to do one thing it makes situation worse. After saying this "too much ingredient spoil the soup" this asnwer is out "i just do my part". What type of co-operative are we talking about here, doing a thing together by helping each other out or i have done mine the others is non of my buisness. If you can't finish it by then you are to be blame cause that your part! Call this co-operate.. NO!!

Recent life

Every night is like day to me now. It seems there is no different between night and day. What i have been doing in the day is what i will do during the night. Too much back behind, too much thing to do seems time is running to fast. 24 hours a day is like 12 hours a day and it is never enough. Too much thing to think of educational, non-educational, everything is there in one day. There is no escape to anything in this life. What is happening around there seems to be not much choice to choose from the only thing that can be done is face it. Its neary end of the semester i found out that i still learn nothing. Its increadible first time in my life, feels that i have learn nothing as if its a long holiday now. What have i been doing, actually i also don't know. Why i have turn up this way now, i also not sure about it. Too much happening around, might be the cause making people feel tired all the time, and give me an unbreathable brain, never stop thinking and looking for solution. Plus test time is here which is equal to dome day. Really hope can turn back time or just let the time freeze for a while. So that can change certain thing that now keep getting worse, so that can start to improve myself in another way, so that i am normal a bit where there is day and night in my life.

Complication

Life is not as easy as being said in word,

There is nothing that is straight,T

here is always bend and corner,

There is no way we can avoid it,

No matter how much you try to avoid,

No matter how much you try to narrow it,

It will always come back to you,

The longer the time for avoiding,

The more corner it turns,

The more narrow it become,

There is time that we have to wait,

Wait for the correct time to strengthen it,

But every single second we waited,

It changes either become narrower or more corners,

No matter what are the action taken,

There is its pro and cons,

After each turn we will never know what come next,

What are the things awaiting after the bend,

There is always sacrifices,

There is no such thing as easy in this life,

Complication is always a symbol of life.

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Things never stop coming. I feel like i am under Mt. Everest and now have to walk all the way up. It like under a pile of dirt that now i am trying to get out of it. Finishing a task is replace by more then one new task. After solving one problem there come more. Even today i let myself relax and didn't think of anything, didn't do anything but just relax the whole day its only on the physically not mentally. Even though there is no movement that shows there is busyness, but mind can't seems to be stop thinking for even a minute. How do we rest our mind. Things come and go all the time but it never stop even for a while. Have a great news a while ago, where i know this coming holiday will be a suffer again. All time is booked again a month ahead. When i can find a time to really get out of all this endless things. Get out in a state that not even thinking about a thing but only to have total fun and relax. Things seem to be endless even though sitting down watching movie, brain still keep on moving keep on wondering. Is there any thing that can this thing stop just for a little while. How i really wish time ticking for a while.

Possible Become Impossible

There is no such thing as impossible if we want to make it possible. Just that it is depend on how much we want it to be possible and how much effort we put into it. Ever since the opening of this semester seems to be zero effort, don't know why but there is an impossible feeling to put an effort into anything. Evertime when want to make it possible, some how it become impossible. There is not a thing that have been done, that seems to goes the way it should be. Everthing is like out of my hands. Even want to take it into hands it, there is some things that keep making me pulling back. Don't know the reason why. Even there is a target infront of me, there is things that i would like to chase after or go after but there is no effort made. Since there is not an effort made even the possible has beceome impossible for me now. Even the easies thing that can be done had become hard. What i have been thinking for now? Why there is a force pulling me back from the things that i want to do even though i know that that particular thing is important. Why can't i get back to my usual self where i did everthing in line. Is it because of there is too many think to think of that i don't even know which one to start with? If this keep going on, the possible also had become the impossible.