Being Stab Right Through

Now i know what is the feeling of being stabb right through. Now i am thinking what i have been doing all this time until i can't do anything towards the problem (forget everthing?) :( This is one of the worse day of my life it's worse then the day i explode as a nuclear boom or the day that i feel saddest and most desperate. Whatshould i do.. calm down myself? Relax a bit, but i caan't there is still tonne of things that have to be done and now i am scared that with this emotion now i can't do anything but looking for something that is not related at all to the thing or similar to the things today. don't even know how to describe..sad, desperate, dissapointed, stress, plus not feeling that well myself there are all there...everyhting is out of order,,